Goal Weight? PSH!

I don't have a weight goal. Everytime I tell someone this, they look at me like i have 2 heads. Why?! How do you not have a goal?! I have my first meeting with a trainer at my new gym next week and I'm curious to hear her response. I DO have goals, but a goal weight just isn't one of them. Let me explain...

The lowest weight I remember being was 170lbs. Obviously, I should weigh less than this at a towering 5'4". I have no idea what I look or (more importantly) FEEL like at a lower weight.

I have PCOS. Last year in 6 months off birth control and trying to conceive, I didn't ovulate at all. In order to have half a chance at getting pregnant on my own, I need to lose weight. So, my first goal is to regulate my PCOS. Decrease my insulin resistance, decrease testosterone, and maybe! ovulate on my own like a normal female. So my first goal can't be measured on a scale. Blood work is the only marker here (I have an appointment with a new OB/GYN at the end of the month and this goal will be discussed in length!).

I'm exercising and watching what I eat to be healthier. Lower my cholesterol, my diabetes risk, etc. I want to FEEL good. I want all my labwork to show a normal, healthy 25 year old!

I want to change my habits in order to teach my kids healthy habits... instead of the fabulously destructive habits I was taught growing up by my mom. Yes, I love her, but her habits were crash dieting (and putting me on crash diets at 7), diet pills, etc. Where did these get her? Diabetes, high blood pressure, hyperlipidemia, etc etc etc. I want to be able to teach my kids that food is a fuel, not a treat or a sin... and that exercise is fun! Not a terrible embarassing chore they make you do in PE.

Also... I want to reduce my risk of injury at work. Nurses have a great risk of back injury at work and I really don't want that. If I'm stronger, leaner, and in general better condition, I'm less likely to have a debilitating injury. In better shape also equals better endurance which equals longer compression time during CPR.

At this point, I'm sure you're asking yourself "then why do you even weigh yourself?" Because when I get to my goal feeling, I want to know what weight that is. THAT will be my idea goal weight and the weight I want to maintain. Also, weight loss is the path to my goals, so it just goes hand in hand. Seeing that I'm 1 or 2 lbs closer in any given week keeps me going and let's me know that I'll get there. Wherever there is.

Anyway, that is my rant about my lack of goal weight. I have many goals but a weight isn't one of them. I'll let you know when I reach my goal feeling and what I happen to weigh at that point.